It's been quite a while since I have written anything here. Things have been so crazy- busy in a good way, but I've missed blogging about my work and how it relates to my life . It's funny how paintings and ideas evolve for me which are not planned out but end up making perfect sense! It's as though something out there, something greater, is at work shaping things, or at least I 'd like to think so! A few years ago I painted an angel which I believe resides in China, when Sam was going through a profoundly difficult time. I was beside myself with anxiety and pain for what he was going through because I was helpless . Having a nonverbal child (young adult) who can only speak through self injury is one of the worst feelings of helplessness for a parent. I suppose painting an angel helped me work through the pain, his pain and knowing it was out of my control and that perhaps something greater than myself was out there ready to grant a miracle.
Sam now twenty five is doing so much better than I could ever imagine after what he went through for years. Some of it is truly accepting things I cannot change but also dramatically changing the things I can. I should say "We" because my husband is a big part of that. It literally took a village ( of angels) but he is now sleeping better than ever, use to sleep only 3 hours a night then up for the day at midnight, had horrible dental issues but now we have an amazing dentist, his ulcerative colitis is kept in check without harsh medications, has loving people, therapists, taking care of him and the list goes on! We face many challenges ahead with his limited communication but he has an awareness and understanding like never before. I am truly grateful for the many angels in his life watching over him. So I'll keep painting angels and keep looking upward.