Saturday, July 6, 2019

Your life can change in an instant.

I think about that all the time.  In  both a good way and bad.  Just when we thought Sam has coming out of a difficult period things got worse. I was heart broken and at a lost for answers as to why he was suffering so much.  He is slowly coming around but something has changed and we need to go back and see many specialists to rule out G.I., orthopedic, etc.  so far dental has been taken care of.
I am so grateful for such a loving family full of support and hands on help as well as a wonderful staff at Sam's residence who truly care. 

I am hopefully back in the studio Monday about to continue working on some custom work I began before Sam's problems began.  No matter how hard life can be you can always find ways to be grateful.

Tuesday, June 18, 2019

On my easel

I am working on a large expressive piece that pretty much sums up what's going on.  These are all echoes of my mind.  It's evolved quite a bit from last week but I got some inspiration from some of my favorite artists.  This photo was taken with my phone in poor light but I think you get the idea! It's 24x36  For those who are interested -I plan on finishing up tomorrow. Thanks for looking

Friday, June 7, 2019

The week it's been

 I am feeling more and more optimistic as each day arrives  after a very difficult crisis weekend with Sam.  We didn't see it coming and just when we thought things were under control they escalated again.   I began to feel somewhat numb, indifferent because we couldn't figure out what was wrong with him.  His pain was heartbreaking.  -The absolute worst feeling which I haven't experienced in years as a parent of a nonverbal autistic now adult in uncontrollable distress.
Around Wednesday we were able to turn things around and I am grateful for all the help and prayers and positive vibes from everyone around us. It truly takes a village!  As bad as that whole experience was for  our son, many lessons were learned and some already strong bonds were now forever cemented.  Today I am back in the studio finishing up a few pieces I had begun last week.

Saturday, June 1, 2019

What I'm working on

 I have been working on two pieces lately, going back and forth from one to the other.  One is 11x14 and the other is 14x18.  Sam will be starting horseback riding therapy(hippo-therapy)  which I am excited about since finding ways for him to exercise is challenging.  Of course one of my new pieces includes, you guessed it,  a horse!  The other is a sort of fatherhood theme but not what you think!
It's funny how a lot of my ideas, bringing objects together is subconscious initially and then
full of synchronicity! Next week we head to Scarborough Maine for a short vacation/ family reunion of sorts so I hope to wrap up my two pieces before we leave. 

Saturday, May 25, 2019

The sun is so bright shining through my studio window I can hardly see, but so happy it  is warmer and not raining.  Today we pick up Sam for the day and Scott will bring him to see my mother as he always does at the nursing home.  It's the highlight of her day, life I suppose.  She tells him the same story of the three little pigs, even though he is twenty five  now, as always.  I am grateful she is still here at 91 mother of seven.  Looking forward to getting back to work in the studio  next week before vacation begins! 

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

Begin Again

 After each painting that I complete I am excited to begin again!  I never have trouble finding inspiration.  It seems to be everywhere for me lately. The picture of Max my son and my sister Joyce was taken at  The Cloisters in New York.  An amazing place which helped inspired me to paint my angel. 
 Today is 60 degree  but the sun has only made a few appearances so far.  I began my day cooking Sam's food for the next several days since he is on a highly specialize diet that only I can properly prepare but I've started writing it down in case I am unable to at my husband's request!  It's a time consuming task, cooking 95% off all the food he eats at his residence but I wouldn't have it any other way. It works and I have it down pretty well.  I just can't seem to cook for my husband and myself!
Going forward, I am starting  a still life with some interesting features.    I also plan on another Tree Of Life  and a piece with a piano again sometime soon.   I am excited to paint now that I've shipped all my print order and paintings for the week.  I love my studio time. 

Monday, May 13, 2019

A village of Angels.

It's been quite a while since I have written anything here.  Things have been so crazy- busy in a good way, but I've missed blogging about my work and how it relates  to my life .  It's funny how paintings and ideas evolve for me which are not planned out but end up making perfect sense!  It's as though something out there, something greater,  is at work shaping things, or at least I 'd like to think so!  A few years ago I painted an angel which I believe resides in China, when Sam was going through a profoundly difficult time.  I was beside myself with anxiety and pain for what he was going through because I was helpless .  Having a nonverbal child (young adult)  who can only speak through self injury is one of the worst feelings of helplessness for a parent.  I suppose painting an angel helped me work through the pain, his pain and knowing it was out of my control and that perhaps something greater than myself was out there ready to grant a miracle. 
Sam now twenty five is doing so much better than I could ever imagine after what he went through for years.  Some of it is truly accepting things I cannot change but also dramatically changing the things I can.  I should say "We" because my husband is a big part of that.  It literally took a village (  of angels)  but he is now  sleeping better than ever, use to sleep only  3 hours a night then up for the day at midnight,  had horrible dental issues but now  we have an amazing  dentist, his ulcerative colitis is kept in check without harsh medications, has loving people, therapists,  taking care of him and the list goes on!   We face many challenges ahead with his limited communication but he has an awareness and  understanding like never before.  I am truly grateful for the many angels in his life watching over him.  So I'll keep painting angels and keep looking upward.